Just Because

My blog has been neglected of late, but there's been a good reason.  For the past 18 months, I've been caring for my mom here in our home.  Her health has not been good since a bad fall about 5 years ago, but it is now rapidly declining to the point she can no longer walk or even sit up by herself.   I'm determined to keep her here and care for her for whatever time she has left.  She is frequently a bit confused (we call it foggy) and it is hard to watch her slowly fading away.  Some of our conversations are just crazy, like when she asked me yesterday how many other patients I'm currently taking care of or  tries to convince me I met my father before she did.  Yet, she still finds joy in simple things (our little dog particularly delights her) and of course visits with family and the hospice angels.  She has her frustrations at not being able to do for herself but I remind her of all she has done her entire life for so many and that it is her turn to allow others to do for her.   It's a blessing to have her here but it is difficult...exhausting...frustrating... and sometimes I doubt my ability and strength to keep going.  I'm taking it one day at a time, and so far we're okay.  Perhaps I'll share a little more about her life in future posts...she really is an amazing lady. 

This is just a quickie card I made for my beautiful daughters (with a Starbucks gift card tucked inside) "just because" I love them so and they like those coffee concoction thingies. Hope you are all having a productive, happy week.

Hugs,
Kathy